without any huge drastic change in my life presently i feel pleased with my life as it is right now.
even though im still dealing with friends running in and out of my life, change of scenary, the impending doom of growing up, dealing with school, dealing with not going to school.
but it all seems fine to me. im finally finding myself being the one sought out for comfort, or companionship or compassion.
and im not saying that i am scott free, with no problems, nothing bugging me in the back of my head, but it all just seems so much easier to deal with now.
i dont know if this is a passing phase, just like those times when you feel anything that can go wrong has indeed happened, but im hoping this feeling will stick with me when bigger problems or difficulties in my life present themselves.
i feel genuinely happy, and i'm very eager to seek out new things, situations, people, places, with the company of my friends.
and im just as willing to sit around and do the same old thing for the time being.
i dont feel like im constantly seeking out something to keep my spirits up.
im no longer seeking out people who feed me the things i like to hear, or people staying stubbornly in the same place just like me.
every day i feel a new wave of positive vibes, from my friends, my family, my every day life.
maybe this is what supposed to happen when you stop being angry?
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i like to think im content at times but truth is, im not. and its not necessarily bad, i can use it as good leverage to get somewhere i want to be. but im glad you are happy because i know youve done your share of being mad at a lot, just like i have. but you learn really fast how foolish it really is. its harder to hate things than love them.. why try to be unhappy when happiness is constantly around you? i dont know what im really trying to say exactly, and i feel somewhat hypocritical because im not in the best of moods these days. i guess just stay in that mindset as long as possible... because it only gets harder.
i think finally realize how much time i wasted being to inverted with myself and angry at everyone else made me feel better in a way. i think it might be with i feel content most of the time. but i still have the feeling of being stuck rather than content.
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